BoSweets Spoken Art

2011-10-30T08:10:00.000-07:00

Excerpt from:

Victory In The Midst

Author BoSweets

Twenty Seven Treatments as of Today

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I arrived at the cancer treatment center today and it was so hard to come out of the dressing room. As I undressed, I cried saying to myself, “I don’t want to do this no more! “

I stood there a few minutes crying, looking at the burns that are already on my breast. After a few minutes of this I thought, Oh Goodness if I don’t come out soon the Techs will probably come back here. “Oh God please help me get myself together”!

Okay Bo, this is treatment number 27; you have a total of 33 and it’s almost over.

You can do it girl…. I’m standing in the mirror trying to pump myself up to go out the door and I’m actually speaking out loud.

I opened the door and there she was. Hi, how are you today? The tech Brenda said.

I immediately put my head down and told her it isn’t really a good day for me. (I can’t stand for people to see me cry but today they were going to see it.)

Brenda was very comforting and said its okay sweetie, it’s almost over, and you’ve completed more than half.

I know, I told her. But it’s just so hard to come here day after day and look at my breast! It’s burned and my nipple is raw. I hurt so badly. The doctor is telling me to take ibuprofen for the pain and it’s not enough. I don’t know who told them cancer don’t hurt.

I shouldn’t have to be this uncomfortable going through this; I cried.

She said okay lay down here and let me take a look. Oh my I see, yes you are taking a beating. Okay you get to see the doctor today and maybe he can give you something to help.

Okay I said in between sniffles.

So the techs go on to prepare me for my radiation.

Tugging a little on the left at my hips and then on the right at my shoulders, lining me up just so to match with the markers.

Okay sweetie here comes your treatment.

I was still so upset that I forgot I have to lie here perfectly still. Thank God they have those cameras and microphone on to observe me.

The door opens and Brenda came in and said, “Just let those tears roll honey”. Try not to move okay. We can take care of them when we’re done.

Oh I’m so sorry, I said. I forgot I have to be still. Its okay she said. Here we go; she said walking out the room again with the door shutting behind her.

2010-11-27T14:39:00.000-08:00

Today I stand here facing the biggest test of my life.

You see I have this man who wants to make me his wife.

The problem is I need him now!

The pressure is so intense

I have sweat on my brow.

He’s unable to come.

So what am I expected to do,

twiddle my thumbs?

I need support like never before

someone to help me through this part of life’s door.

I have to move on there’s no way I can get through this by myself.

I love him so much,

I don’t want there to be no one else!

He says he wants to be there in sickness and in heath,

But for now I must move out of the way so he can obtain his wealth.

Today I stand here unsure of the reason for my season,

but God hasn’t left me to go through this alone.

Things are being moved and rearranged,

so He can set the tone.

He’s made provisions and placed an Angel directly in my path,

I just need to add it all up and do the math.

Today I Stand Here

One Tender Moment

2010-11-05T14:20:00.000-07:00

One tender moment,

You are kissing at the base of my neck.

One hand holding my hair,

The other at the small of my back!

Perhaps I’ll just sit on your lap

Or lie next to you, and take a nap.

One more tender moment that’s all I need,

To caress my baby and rub on your chest!

Sit wrapped in your arms and know I’m blessed.

Maybe massage your temples

Til’ you smile and I see those dimples.

One more tender moment to whisper in your ear

Ooh baby, I’m glad you’re here!

I Must Let Go of You

2010-11-05T14:16:00.000-07:00

I don’t need your money or your Cadillac Seville.

I need a man who can take care of me like Jack took care of Jill.

I need your friendship, understanding, respect and support.

Oh and a little bit of love would stop the divorce.

So many days go by and I feel like my heart is going to burst,

My eyes overflow with tears and my knees feel reversed!

All day long I fight with all my might to hold back the tears,

By the end of the day, when I turn my key to step inside

Tears flow like a river.

He says I will, and you said I do

Only thing, you failed to follow through,

Today, I must let go of you.

You say you wonder what punishment God has in store

For you breaking my heart;

Well as painful as it is,

I pray that He will protect and guide you,

One day show you true love and happiness.

I pray that you will let down your guard and love completely

And allow yourself to be loved.

I’d like to think we both gave it our best

And it just wasn’t good enough and that’s ok.

You failed to follow through,

Today I must let go of you.

Crossroads

2010-11-05T14:08:00.000-07:00

I’m at a crossroads in my life.

Hey, are you going my way?

Don’t let my struggles with life chase you away

I just want your heart, mind, body and maybe your soul.

Together we can travel down this road.

Material things you don’t have to buy;

Just promise you’ll be there in the event that I cry.

Hold me, console me, if need be mold me.

With you is where I want to be.

The road I just left humm.. confusion to me.

Should I gamble my heart to thee?

Crossroads..

Are you going my way!

Author of, "Secrets of The Soul, Shattered Pieces Made Whole"

2010-05-06T13:19:00.001-07:00

BoSweets~ Published Author & Poet

2010-05-06T13:14:00.000-07:00

I've Been Thinking About You

2010-02-13T18:10:00.000-08:00

I can’t get you out of my head.

All I wanna do,
is twist my fingers in those
Knotty, knotty dreads!

When we first met,
I started to keep on walking
wondering is this another one
who wants me to share him with two or three?

Something inside made me stop
I’m glad I did because you add what’s missing to the block!

It feels real good to be excited to see you
and to laugh and smile
I may need to place you in the main file.

I’ve been thinking about you

I feel kind of guilty for having such strong feelings in such a short time
but damn I just can’t seem to get you off my mind!

It’s been a long time & I need to take it slow.
There are a lot of things I really need to know.

I haven’t trusted anyone with my heart for sometime.
With you, I’m ready to let my guard down
like the drop of a dime.

I’ve been thinking about you…

Without Hesitation

2010-02-13T18:04:00.000-08:00

Ooh, baby, baby
please!
Slow it down.

Let me have just a few minutes, an hour.
Could I perhaps get one night?

I was pondering perhaps a celebration alongside of candle light.

A smidgen of conversation,
Bestow a thought or two.

Come
Let me wash away the day for you.
I’ll just pretend you’re my boo...
Without hesitation!

When you arrive, don’t worry about ringing no chime.
Don’t look for no key!
Just twist the knob and come to me.

Kiss behind my ears and the base of my neck and at that moment;
Rub my thighs and all up my back.

Hurry
Come wash the day off of me.

Gaze into my eyes like you did the first time,
subduing my mind with subliminal pacification,
intoxicating my mental gift to reason and balance
another rhapsody of what you declare, ingenuous, blissful love.
Without hesitation!

Just before I curl next to you to retire for the night,
I’ll kneel and ask the Lord, Most High,
for our union to remain a euphoric yoke;
and without indecision,
you forever introduce to my being a special luminous smile
which explodes uninterrupted from the very essence of my soul.

May we pledge unity & balance,
a life saturated in tranquility,
one deeper than fleshly relations

I’m seeking my soul mate,
someone with whom I can pass through heavens gates.

I’m soliciting a lifetime of social intimacy,
kindness, respect & support
Sweet promises of everything,
yet receiving nothing but having it all!

You see,
You’ve captured my attention with your facile smile
Without hesitation I’ll risk it all!

When The Stick Turned Blue

2010-02-13T18:01:00.000-08:00

A special day,
Some call it joyous.
When the stick turned blue she said oops!

Is this a miracle life or tragic mistake?

Celebrating and partying she did what she wanted to do.
Speeding all night, puffin reefer & drinking, sometimes landing in fights.
Now her baby’s born non responsive without life.

She was doin’ the damn thang and forgot about you!

Barely breathing arriving in this world drunk and messed up;
Baby just cries and cries all day, all night now she’s screaming shut the F- up!

Get yo’ ass up!
It’s time to go to school.

I’m gone send you off today and ya’ bet not act no fool.
Ooh I hate when the stick turned blue.

Just look at you, you make me sick.
I should have never sat on your daddy’s dick.
I don’t know how to stop you from throwing these fits.
Could it have been those indo sticks or other drugs I did while turning tricks?

I don’t care what it is, your behavior is not right.
We’re gonna get to the bottom of this if it takes all night!

Papa's Storm

2010-02-13T17:59:00.000-08:00

Darkened tree barks scattered all through the forest;
Coated with deep green leaves which grew like a chorus!

Hot, humid, the middle of the day.
Thunderstorms rolling in the company of a dominant clang!

Rain hits the asphalt like the sounds of drummers coming from his past.
Oh Jah, what a mighty task.

Listen.
So strong, so much force!

Smell the heat, the dampness, the stillness too.

I’m thinking of you papa this storm reminds me of you.

I want to hear your laughter just one more time!
Talk to you or see your face.
But your body has grown weary and has quit the race.

Since the day you left me, no salt left in my tears.
I’m feeling your vibe while reminiscing the years.

I heard the storm roar as ferocious as the lions in the jungle,
And wished you were here to witness this tunnel.

Just at that moment a warm breeze blew by the side of my ear;
Letting me know your were standing right there.

Without warning, I felt you’re arms slowly wrapping around my body,
Caressing me just as you did when I was young.

Your strong hands stroking my hair telling me baby, daddy’s right here.

I’ll never leave my little girl again.

If you need to talk,
Just pray on Papa’s storm!

Do You See What I See

2010-02-13T17:57:00.000-08:00

Do You See What I See

You, running from the police
Pants at your ankles
Shuffling across the street?

The scene of every crime,
You lying in your drawers
Butt naked, dead
In nothing at all!

Lil’ man barely learning to walk,
Struggling to hold his pants up
Momma’s boyfriend wears it like that,
Mommy thinks it’s cute!
Look at my baby…

Do you see what I see?
I see you
I want the nice shoes and ride,
I just ain’t ready to die!

Becoming product of environment,
Hustling to survive
You become property of state
Unable to escape

The label,
That’s now placed on you!

FELON

Rehabilitated or not,
Your life is shot!

There’s nothing left you can do,
But pray to God!

That is,
If anyone took time to introduce you.
He’s your only way!

Now you sit, do what ya’ gotta do
To get through each day!

Do you see what I see?

Our future,
Our black men,
Diminishing!

Right before our eyes!

Recognize
You
Are our PRIZE!

Mothers know,
You can change it all up!

Take time,
Grow your boys up!!