Excerpt from:
Victory In The Midst
Twenty Seven Treatments as of Today
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I arrived at the cancer treatment center today and it was so hard to come out of the dressing room. As I undressed, I cried saying to myself, “I don’t want to do this no more! “
I stood there a few minutes crying, looking at the burns that are already on my breast. After a few minutes of this I thought, Oh Goodness if I don’t come out soon the Techs will probably come back here. “Oh God please help me get myself together”!
Okay Bo, this is treatment number 27; you have a total of 33 and it’s almost over.
You can do it girl…. I’m standing in the mirror trying to pump myself up to go out the door and I’m actually speaking out loud.
I opened the door and there she was. Hi, how are you today? The tech Brenda said.
I immediately put my head down and told her it isn’t really a good day for me. (I can’t stand for people to see me cry but today they were going to see it.)
Brenda was very comforting and said its okay sweetie, it’s almost over, and you’ve completed more than half.
I know, I told her. But it’s just so hard to come here day after day and look at my breast! It’s burned and my nipple is raw. I hurt so badly. The doctor is telling me to take ibuprofen for the pain and it’s not enough. I don’t know who told them cancer don’t hurt.
I shouldn’t have to be this uncomfortable going through this; I cried.
She said okay lay down here and let me take a look. Oh my I see, yes you are taking a beating. Okay you get to see the doctor today and maybe he can give you something to help.
Okay I said in between sniffles.
So the techs go on to prepare me for my radiation.
Tugging a little on the left at my hips and then on the right at my shoulders, lining me up just so to match with the markers.
I was still so upset that I forgot I have to lie here perfectly still. Thank God they have those cameras and microphone on to observe me.
The door opens and Brenda came in and said, “Just let those tears roll honey”. Try not to move okay. We can take care of them when we’re done.
Oh I’m so sorry, I said. I forgot I have to be still. Its okay she said. Here we go; she said walking out the room again with the door shutting behind her.
©2011 BoSweets
